Liquor & Love Lust.

WOw hello tumblr.

Whats up didn’t know you were still here til joey brooks told me he saw you 

whaat.

anyways guess what, no time have to get ready , eat and go to work : [ 

booo.

Bai 

be on later 

I never use tumblr any more

my relationships about to go to shit.

thanks so fucking much. 

I’m pretty sure i’m the only one who even notices it, because that’s just how i am. I sense it coming, i really, really do.

Because it’s starting to be like it used to be, and what’d that lead to? 
Yeah, go figure.

plans make, drop em.

You tell me so much fucking shit, about how you wanna do this and that, then you decide to do something else, and ask me if it’s okay after we made plans, then you ask if i’m mad, and why i’d tell you to go if i’d be mad. 

You’re how old? I’m done telling you what i want, i’m done telling you things you caan make decisions for yourself. 
Yeah i’m upset, why tell me one thing, and some one else something different?
It makes no sense what so ever.

And when i do tell you something, you run your mouth to your friends about me saying you can’t do this or that, then making me look bad. When you’re the one who says oh nevermind half the time. ?

Ihonestly don’t give a fuckwhat you do any more, i’m done caring, Yeah its gonna be hard, but what ever dude, i don’t need this shit. Im just gonna work my ass off so i can go some where and be something.
I honestly don’t care about any thing any more except my family, and myself. every one else not really.

It really sucks, four years with so much behind it, 
Turning back into how things got before,
i don’t know.

I just wanna cry myself to sleep.  

So,

never up on tumblr any more, or fb or pinterest. 

working, moving, and trying to get started. 

dont know how it’s gonna turn out but , you know. 

I wanna get back on photography soon , like when i’m not working and stuff. Need that sidemoney! 

off today and sunday =) 
Picked up a shift tomorrow, thank god.

addicted to water only and cranberry juice. : ]

burnt the top of my mouth, and listening to la dispute.

Tired as i don’t know what, and i don’t know why.
missing people like hell

dogs out side.

parents at work.

no ones here or the apartment.

patriots for super bowl.

dreams lately have been kind of crazy,

i’m slowly getting sick.

no cable or internet at the apartment, kinda fucking blows.

kinda miserable at times, but it’ll pass.

I’ve came to likeing work a whole lot,

knock on wood.

i don’t know why either.

and video games.

gonna be a gamer, and a photographer and go tanning.

 so it’s gptl :p

what else.

i love kenneth more than any thing in the whole world. 

c= 

I wanna ‘get it in’ 

lolol. 

some times i think about inviting a lot of random people over just becasue it’s something to do.

like the people i used to hang out with, but i think they’d only wanna try and do it. 

wouldn’t work out.

i need a girl to hang out with ,and not betray me in ways. 

who’d listen to music, dance around, play video games, watch sappy movies in pj’s even action ones. 
Sounds like i’m trying to get a girlfriend, LOLOL>.>
Even a guy though, someone to do some thing with at times.
>.<

never been happier on some days, just the weather, and the feeling of things.
Maybe i’ll start reading my books, and watching the movies. and start writing again?

Become more artsy, and not do what i do sometimes.
Change who i am again, for the best. I can’t keep the same skin for more than a few months, sick huh ?

so many memories are going through my head right now, old music brings back old times. 

one of them days, i guess. ? 

I sometimes think the old days were better, but no time to dwell on the past! because the present could be just as good, if not better.

Again, I miss so many people right now. : \

SO, :]

Today I think, we’re starting to move out. 

It’s a country morning, and i got work at 9. 

He reminds me of Ron Weasly. Really? Yeah, is that bad?  

ahaha. 

<3 

This boy makes me so happy, but so nervous. 

work is going alright at the moment, i do believe. 

gotta get some more pants, F.O.C is coming feb 24 : O

Hungry, hungry I am. 

Must start exercising more than i am meow. 

must cut back on fast, oily foods.

I miss the beach, not the people. But the landscapee, laughs, and memories that follow. I miss the days you can just go sit and relax with seeing people having fun and doing all that, that they do . aah .

I must make some friends to have nice times with again, and one’s who don’t want me for things.  Just a few select people I can just talk to and do fun things with, with out complaining and stuff… 

WHYDOISUCK>.> 

iwannafuckkkkkkk=[